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- Age: 38
- Annoyance: rude, impatient, pestimistic peopl
- Animal: would rather they NOT live IN my house!
- Actor:

B
- Beer: Yuck
- Birthday/Birthplace: 10-29-71 way down south
- Body Part on opposite sex: Eyes & Smile
- Been in Love: Yes
- Been bitched at: Yes
- Believe in yourself?: Yeah
- Believe in God: Absolutely
- Before weight: 191 lbs was higher at some point but wouldn't step on the scale
C
- Car: 2009 Saturn VUE
- Candy: most anything!
- Color: pink
- Cried in school: no
- Chocolate/Vanilla: CHOCOLATE!
- Chinese/Mexican: BOTH
- Cake or pie: cheesecake! YUMMY!
- Country to visit: anyplace!

D
- Day or Night: both i don't require lots of sleep
- Do the splits?: yes

E
- Eggs: Over easy
- Eyes: Blue

F
- First crush: Shane, in the 3rd grade
- First thoughts waking up: can't my children sleep past 6!
- Food: unfortunatly, can't live without it!

G
- Greatest Fear: Losing my family
- Goals: to be the happiest and healthiest i can for me and my family
- Get along with your parents?: Absolutely. My mom is my BEST friend. My Step Dad is the greatest DADDY ever.  my father, just someone i know.  no special person there.
- Good luck charm: don't have one.
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- Hair Colour: brown
- Height: 4'10.5"
- Happy: Yes!
- Holiday: Christmas
- Health freak?: i can be at times.
- Hate: that's such a STRONG word...
I
- Ice Cream: eat it often!
- Instrument: Played the flute in Elementary and piano in high school

J
- Jewelry: all my jewelry is Gold
- Job: mom, cook, chauffer, referee, etc....
K
- Kids: Yes, 4 boys!
- Kickboxing or karate: Umm...neither
- Keep a journal? I write a blog...

L
- Longest Car Ride: North Carolina to LA
- Love: LOTS of it!
- Laughed so hard you cried: Yes...too many to count.
- Love at first sight: of course, i loved every one of my children from the moment i saw them!
M
- Milk flavor: skim, chocolate
- Movie: pretty woman
- Mooned anyone?: yeah
- Marriage: Love my Marriage about to have an anniversary
- Motion sickness? YES! even on a regular kind of SWING!
- McD’s or BK: McD's YUCK!  Bk used to be my fav...haven't had it in a LONG time!

N
- Number of Siblings: 3 younger brothers
- Number of Piercings: 1 in each ear
- Number: 7

O
- One wish: for all of my children to grow into happy, healthy adults!
P
- Place you’d like to live: Somewhere beautiful and Tropical.
- Perfect Pizza: VEGGIE
- Pepsi/Coke: Coke but never was a huge soda drinker.

Q
- Questionaires: usually don't do them because of time.  the children are napping, so i decided why not!
R
- Reason to cry: do we really need to answer that? 
- Reality T.V.: yeah...a couple of them
Roll your tongue in a circle? Yes

S
- Song: Love Music....don't really have a favorite one.
- Shoe size: 7 1/2-8
- Salad Dressing: ranch
- Skipped school: No
- Smoking: Never
- Sing well?: hahaha..no
- Strawberries/Blueberries: both!

T
- Time for bed: anywhere between 9-11
- Thunderstorms: rather not
- TV: could live without it, but probabaly end up watching too much just because it's here.
U
- Unpredictable: nah
V
- Vegetable you hate: none that i can think of
- Vegetable you love: just about everything
- Vacation spot: any QUIET place

W
- Weakness: my children!
- When you grow up: be a grandma and spoil my grandkids!
- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: valerie
- Wanted to be a model?: Uh, no

X
-X-Rays: before Lap Band Procedure
Y
-Year it is now: 2009
-Yellow: i don't wear it!

Z
- Zoo: plan to bring the kiddos soon!
- Zodiac sign: scorpio
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genes, gymnastics and exercising...

Ok, i'm going to post some pics....
I remember the day i doubted my surgery and looked at my before pics and CRIED wondering WHY did i wait?!
now, i'm THANKFUL for those pics because it reminds me the reason i'm traveling this journey.
A lot of times i feel like i have to make excuses for not having more to lose....these pictures also remind me that although i didn't have 100 pounds or more to lose, that because i'm so short, the amount i DID need to lose was still VERY risky to my health, and i was just a couple of pounds away from morbidly obese, i had EXTREMLY high b/p and i looked terrible! (and felt WORSE!)

without further ado....

WOW...what a DIFFERENCE!!  THIS is what makes it ALL WORTH it!

My incisions look pretty good except the spot on the right of my port scar.  it had gotten infected 4 months after surgery and that spot is still dark.  i'm hoping it lightens more!  sorry for the glare in the mirror!

this pic shows them better, i think.

THIS is the reason for the plastic surgeron consult on THURSDAY!!!

my port has always been a 'bump'...it shows more and more these days! 

I'm going to ask about having it moved during surgery or a low profile one put in...

I wish there was this little amount of jiggle when i wasn't flexing...but i love the tone look of my arms now!!

I have to say, of all the parts of my body, i would pick my calves to be the one thing i can say i have NO complaints about!

Thanks to good GENES....gymnastics for a LOT of years and now exercising again, the fat has melted off of them and exposed some AWESOME muscle!!

I'm still jumping all around but never got back down to 124 yet!  at least i'm not seeing 130's anymore!!

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birthday, halloween, parents visiting and a fill...

First off, i didn't make my birthday goal.  actually, i don't even know how far away i am from it because i am too afraid to step on the scale!

For my birthday we went eat out.  Italian.  Carino's. YUM!
then, cheesecake because i MUCH rather that than cake.  YUM!

Then, Friday, my parents came and we took them out to dinner because i hadn't seen my mom for her birthday, and we were going celebrate BOTH of our days.
OUTBACK.  Onion blum, wings (i should say wing, cause i had ONE), steak, potato.... (more cheesecake much later when we were home)

Halloween... candy.  CHOCOLATE.  I could eat the junk and never eat food.  i love it that much. 
I'm going to have my husband bring it to work and only bring the kids a treat a day.  otherwise, i will eat it until it's gone.  i. know. me.

I had NO trouble eating steak.  granted, i didn't eat nearly the amount of food i did preband (except the chocolate, i ate way too much!), but still, i was able to eat a lot. 

My Dr. is closed on Friday, so i couldn't call and make another fill appointment.  I already knew Friday that i would be going for another fill, even before all the overindulgences i have had!  I WILL be calling and DEMANDING a fill appointment!

i WILL wait for my period to come and go (i'm pretty sure it's going to start today) since i've had problems around that time to the point of having 2 days of barely being able to keep liquids down.  I think i'll make my appointment for mid next week just to make sure TOM is here and gone, i'm not tight from it, and have time to cancel if needed (i hate a 8 am monday appointment because i can't cancel ahead of time if needed!)

I've even slacked on exercising!  i usually go work out 6 days a week.  even when i have a migraine i go.  I didn't go Monday, Friday, or Saturday this past week.  it HAS been a crazy week, lots of things going on that we have had to get taken care of.  then, preparing for company, having company....but really, it's all excuses.  i could have gone had a just done it! 

A couple of NSV's.... my jeans were falling off of me, and couldn't find the only other pair that i have that will fit.  My mom was out shopping with me and i held up a pair of jeans that were on sale for $9 and said, nah, that's not going to fit.  she said, if anything they may be too big for you.  ???HUH??? no way.  she told me to buy them, (i didn't have time to try them on, nor did i feel like it) and if they don't fit, bring them back.  for $9, she said i couldn't go wrong.  i brought them home, and they fit!  The too big jeans were a 6 petite from Old navy.  i find ON jeans are big, so i never considered a 6 REALLY too big.  well, this other pair of jeans are a 6 petite...and they fit!  VERY slimming...all the better, since the ON ones were big, i thought they made me look bigger in the belly anyhow!

i had to get my license renewed.  i like my picture.  i HATED the last one.  it. was. HORRIBLE!  i'm also VERY close to the weight that has been on it for more than 6 years that's wasn't even CLOSE to my true weight.  it's still not accurate, but how ironic that it IS my GOAL...120!  when she asked if my height or weight has changed, i just said, well, i WISH i would have GROWN, but i doubt i have! ;-)  she giggled.  so, now i have to at least get down to 120...so i'm not telling a fib on my license!

all of our neighbors were out talking in the street Thursday evening and they all commented on my weight loss and since it was my birthday, and didn't know how old i was, they were shocked at my age.  one neighbor asked if i was 27?  HAHAHAHA...i said, yes, with a 17 year old son, right?  I think people just associate my height and age together...they think because i'm little (short), that i'm young too.  NICE though! ;-)  i'll take it! 
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my fill appointment and thinking aloud

I forgot to post about my fill appointment because i had the other post scheduled to post!!

I went to my appointment on Monday.  i weighed in at 135!!! WHAT?  ok, the last time i went it, i had a light shirt, light shorts and flip flops (this is unusally my plan so that my weight is as close to what it is naked as i can get it...without stripping down at the Dr's office! ).  this time, is was actually cold out, so i had to wear warmer clothes.

anyhow, according to THIER scale, and the last weight recorded from my last appointment on thier scale, i was up SEVEN pounds!  OMG!  i felt so ashamed!  i usually get praised when i go there, not this time.  they didn't make me feel bad at all about it though!!
so, the Dr comes in and says he's NOT giving me a fill!  WHAT? 

i said, i can eat way more than i should, i don't have to sip, and i've GAINED SEVEN pounds!! 
he looked at my chart again, and said, 'but you had reflux happening before.  and weren't you losing too quickly because it was too tight?'

NOPE...not me.  i actually STOPPED losing when i got that tight.  I am pretty sure it was swelling that i didn't let go down before going on to eating again.  I was out of town and had several public eating occasions, and with no one but my mom and husband knowing about my band, i kept trying to eat!
i could handle staying on liquids once i got home, but the reflux was driving me nuts, waking me all night and i needed my sleep!

he said, 'ok, but i'd say only half of what we took out.'

I said, 'OK!  i'm fine with that!  anything is better than nothing!!

i can feel a tiny bit of restriction, while i'm eating.  it's not letting me overeat....ALL. IS. GOOD!!  woo hoo
AND although i won't meet my goal of being at my original goal i set by my birthday (tomorrow), i will be closer to my lowest weight so far. My lowest so far has been 124, i've gone up to 130, and as of this morning, i was back to 126!!

my new goal, well, same goal WEIGHT, different date is to be as close or to my original goal weight by Nov 12 which is my PS consult appointment. 
with my fill, changing to fit n trim at curves and adding walking/running, i shouldn't have any trouble getting close to that.

the closer i get to my goal, i keep thinking i'm going to change my goal.
123 is the highest normal weight for my height.  
120 just sounded like a good number and not completely unrealistic when i first started out (although the Dr thought that would be a Stretch...ha...I'm closer than he thought i would get to it!!)
114 is between my original of 120 and 109.
109 is a BMI of 22 which i heard is a great place for women.
92 is the lowest weight to not be considered UNDERweight for my height......can you imagine?  92 pounds?  i would be leg and arm muscles only....LOL
i'll have to get a pic of my legs....there is NO way i could get down to 92 pounds without having to lose every bit of muscle mass in me! 

ok, i'm rambling.  Time to get the kids to BED! ahhhhhhhh

Tomorrow i will wake up 38 and for the first time in a LONG time, i will wake up on my birthday feeling MUCH YOUNGER than my age!!

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I did it! well, half of it anyhow!

I have been saying i wanted to start walking to curves, doing my workout, then running back.  it's 1.7 miles each way. 
I don't want to run there just yet because i don't want to be too tired to do my workout. 
Today, my husband was going do some shopping, so he dropped me off, i did my workout then i ran home.  i would say i only walked the .7....i ran most of the time!!  I had to stop about 6 minutes in because my shins hurt.  i walked and stretched them some then took off again!  it felt SO GOOD!
once i am up to walking there and running home every other workout (the alternant one i WILL walk/run...because i have a hard day then an alternate day...and i don't want to be too tired for the hard day).  then i will add at least walking home if my husband is available to take me there.

i'm trying my hardest to break this plateau.  can you really call it a plateau when the only reason i'm not losing is because of what i AM eating?  lol

i'm going to be sore tomorrow.  i can feel it already.  yikes!
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anyone use, or have researched

bodybugg or gowear?

what's the difference? 

price

monthly fees

features

pros

cons....

any other info about them?

not sure if i want to commit to something like that,

but with B-day and Christmas coming up,

thought i would look into for a possible gift request!

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Those of you with a WII

I'm NOT a video game person.  AT. ALL.

From what i understand, this is nothing like that.
what's reccommended?
I know i will need the console.
What else will i need?
what are the best things to get for exercise or/and fun?
I want something that i can do as fun workouts, but also have fun with the family.
I'm CLUELESS!
The husband asked me what i wanted for my birthday, and that is one of the things that came to mind.

he thinks i've lost my mind because i am known for saying, video games ROT YOUR BRAIN!  (i always pick on my older kids by telling them that!)

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in the TEENS!!!

It's now NINETEEN days until my appointment!
i made this appointment MONTHS ago.
I made the appointment that far out with what i thought was enough time to get to my original goal. I'm hoping i make it now!! 
I'm going for my first plastic surgery consult!!
I will be going to Dr. Todd Adam. 
i have seen a few patients of his pics and i was very impressed!

I do not plan to have surgery until March 2010. 
our reasoning:
we don't want to finance anything
we will use tax money to pay for it.
we will have help with the care of the little ones
my husband usually takes time off from work in march
it will give me time to maintain or  lose more (whatever the Dr. recommends)

I'm SO excited!!!

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NSV, scale victory and an appointment

I called yesterday and my appointment is for 8:00 monday morning!  WHEW!  it was a relief just KNOWING i would get my restriction back...SOON!

i ate SO much better yesterday, had my water (after working out, i downed a bottle of water in 2 drinks...before realizing what i did!  can we say NO restriction?)

Scale Victory...the scale showed 126 this morning!  WHEW....it's going down.  it made me realize that i need to get my water in, eat meals, don't graze .  PLAN my day.  if i snack, PLAN them and make good choices for them.

NSV.  yesterday we had some serious conversations with my oldest (17).  after letting him know how proud i was of his desicions, i told him  i love him, and hugged him.  he gave me a huge hug, arms all the way around me.  After letting go, he said...."gosh mom, you are TINY!" 
he is thin (5'10" and 140-145)  his girlfriend is THIN (about 5'8" and 120)...and he called me TINY!  WOW! 
then...I was talking with his girlfriends mom (in person) and she said, 'i have to tell you...it's been a few weeks since i have seen you, but you just keep on shrinking...you are so little'
heehee...i said, thank you (aren't compliments the hardest to JUST accept without explination?  i SO wanted to say, THANK YOU...i SO NEEDED TO HEAR THAT because i've been up and down and driving myself crazy with feeling terrible about gaining and not eating right and, and, and......)
i just said, Thank you.  and left with a jump in my step and a smile on my face! 

I'm very short.  only 4'10.5".  although the Dr has it written at 4'11"  heehee...it seems the lower my weight, the more i get that they didn't realize HOW short i am.  No one understands why i would want to lose more, but even in the 120's, i'm one of the 'bigger girls' in our family!  most of the women in my family are right at 5' and under 100 pounds.  no one looks sick, or malnourished...we are just little, petite, tiny  people. 

I can carry more weight and look smaller than most of them because i have more muscle than they do, thank goodness!  LOL  i cannot imagine needing or wanting to be under 100 pounds!  that would make me look like death sick. 
I was in gymnastics for MANY MANY years as a child and teenager and it takes very little to build the muscles back. 



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fill er up!

I still haven't started my period, no headache (period usually starts the day after my migraine stops), and i'm gaining!  NOT GOOD!

i'm freaking out!  I want my fill back.  maybe not the 1 cc he took out, but half of that for now!

I'm calling in just a few minutes (when they open) to schedule an appointment.  he told me to wait 2 weeks.  it's been 2 weeks.  on MY scale (weighing naked, before anything to eat or drink) my lowest has been 124 (128 on his, but that was fully clothed).  this morning, i was 128!  ARGH!!! 

it's like my head is telling me i'm going to wake up in the morning and ALL the weight will be back! 

I was hoping to not get a fill until after my birthday on the 29th so i could go eat out with my family and no one notices anything (remember, only my mom and hubby knows about my band).

at this point, i do not care if i get a fill NOW.....

ok, it's after 8.....going make the call...

FILL ER UP!

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Dum Dum

no, i'm not calling names....

it was the downfall of yesterday!

I just figured out that i probably had 255 calories from DUM DUM's yesterday!

how empty is THAT?

thank goodness they are almost gone.  The 2 little ones act like it's crack, so i know i won't be getting those ever again (they have BEEN in the candy jar, but the kids just realized WHERE the candy jar has been hiding.)!!

I had a migraine again yesterday (thank goodness i didn't wake up with one today!  I bet my period is going to start soon!)

My husband is off today, so there should be less mindless eating in the evening. If i get the cravings for JUNK this evening, i WILL go walk/try to run instead!

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Didn't know if i should laugh or cry!

Yesterday, it was COLD in the morning when i needed to bring my oldest to school.  I looked around for a sweatshirt to throw on to bring him.
I found one that was a STAPLE in my wardrobe for the last few winters. 
I remembered it fit way to good...(read: almost tight!)
When i put it on yesterday, it was HUGE!  i could wear it as a DRESS!  It was almost to my knees it was so big!!
i honestly didn't know if i should laugh or cry!
Laugh at how it looks now, or cry because i let myself get to the point that it was almost too little!!

can i just say, I LOVE MY BAND!!

yesterday i did great. 
protein drink
can of tuna
grapes
almonds
3 slices of turkey
pineapple
cottage cheese
slice of high fiber toast with a tiny bit of peanut butter
last night, not so good! 
I ate the darn grahm crackers, AGAIN!  no chocolate this time.
my youngest wanted to 'share' his gold fish crackers with me and as hard as i tried to take them and feed them back to him, he was persistant and made me eat a few!

worked out at curves, didn't walk/run.
 

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cool weather, migraine, smores, and snotty noses...

what do any of these have to do with each other?

We have had cool weather here!  It's been WONDERFUL!!  I love WAY down south.  it's usually HOT here most of the year.  we have very mild winters and EXTREMELY HOT summers.  So, we lit up the fire pit!

Yesterday, i fought off a headache most of the day.  the thing is, when i have a migraine, or one trying to start, or ending....it makes me want to snack.  The worst thing is to let myself feel the slightest bit hungry because then, i get nauseous.  NOT GOOD! 

since it was cool, i thought the kids would LOVE to make smores.  BAD idea when i'm trying to not eat carbs.  I even had to go to the store to get the marshmellows (i only had the little ones and grahm crackers here) and the chocolate.
I'm sure you can see where this is going...yup.  i ate some of it!  argh...i did it to myself! 

This has given me an answer to the weight gain/stall though.  it seems like everytime i have a migraine, i go up a little, then stall, then have a decent loss.  let's hope that happens this time!  if it doesn't, i may be tempted to go get a fill...of about 5 cc...close me right on up...if i can't eat, then i HAVE to lose, right?  JUST KIDDING!!!  for one, i doubt the Dr. will put more than 1 cc back in, and i'm thinking he will only do half of that since the 1 cc got tight (i was having a week long migraine at the time, so i'm thinking it was causing swelling then too!)  there IS some connection in tightness, migraines and my period...for me anyhow!

as for the snotty/congested/sneezing/coughing.....thank goodness it's not ME...but even worse, it's THREE of my four boys!  the oldest didn't complain a bit, but i could hear him....got dressed and went to school.  i wonder if he'll be calling for me to go get him at some point?  The 2 youngest have it too...but they aren't in school yet, so i'll give them some allergy meds, breathing treatments and pray it passes QUICK!

can you believe, me, a SCALE WHORE did not weigh this morning?  well...i think it was more...if i don't step on the scale and SEE that the scale didn't go down, that it's not true....and maybe i lost 5 lbs overnight! 

ok, so i gave in... after drinking some of my coffee though.  so i'm still not believing it!  although, i'm happier with that number than i have been with what i have been seeing the last couple of days!

126!  WHEW...since i had already had my coffee, it's probably 125 point something...MUCH closer to my lowest of 124! 

off to get another cup of coffee and an imitrex to KNOCK this headache out!!

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day 2 down!

I did pretty good although the scale didn't agree this morning! ARGH!
I could have done better with water, and that's PROBABLY my biggest setback.
I had my coffee. with creamer and sugar.
a serving of almonds throughout the day.
twice, i had 1/2 cup cottage cheese.
a protein shake.  I make my own because i can't have artificial sugar.  (carnation essentials *choc*, f/f milk, 2 servings of liquid egg whites, blended in magic bullet)
turkey chili
i haven't done any exercise this weekend.  i usually go to curves on Saturday, but i didn't have anyone home to keep the little ones, so i couldn't go. 

I REALLY need to get back to running again.  It's my own fault, i keep slacking and making excuses.

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I just realized

after reading back through those post, that i have been the same (or going up and down the same few pounds) since 9/29/09! 
I know being too tight was part of it.
I hope that doesn't happen again. 
It was the strangest thing.
I have only had 2 fills, the last being April 23, 2009.  Everything was going GREAT.  i was losing, without going hungry and not having to kill myself with exercise.
SUDDENLY, i'm so tight i have to struggle to eat, water was making me go REALLY slow, i was having reflux all night....
now,  I have 1 cc less in my band and NO restriction unless i try to overdo it with eating too much.
I have 4 pounds to get to my goal, plus the few pounds i've been jumping around with...i need to get with it if i'm going to meet my birthday goal!
I didn't make my last goal of 7 months and 70 pounds...the first goal i didn't make.
I REALLY want to make up for that with the birthday goal of being at my original goal.

If i get back to walking/running and continue going to Curves, AND control my eating (which i've done GREAT again today), i KNOW i can do this!!

I will really be upset with myself if i don't make goal by my PS appointment (11/12/09) because i wanted to be at goal and see what he tells me from there.
If he thinks i should lose more,to get the results i want,  i want to know how much more.
If he thinks i should work on maintianing  and that the surgery will get me to where i want to be, then i want to worry only about having to maintain.

I didn't think i would be getting implants.  i was thinking just a lift, but low and behold, the boobs that have NEVER gotten smaller than a full C, are shrinking...big time!
i REALLY needed new bra's (ones that FIT!) so I had a fitting done this week at VS.  Before surgery, i was spilling out of a 40 DD....at my fitting...34C!  i ended up with a 36 C because the extra skin was coming out of the sides of the arms making it look terrible. 
I want to be at least a full C.  I have been that size or bigger for the last 17 years, i feel like i have NO chest now that i've lost the weight!
 cannot wait for my belly to be flat and no wrinkles all over it!  4 kids have made a  mess on my belly.
I'm also hoping it will get rid of or at least hide my port scar under my undies.  after the infection, there is stil a small dark spot that doesn't seem to be going away! 
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1 day down

My goal for yesterday was to NOT have carbs, or VERY, VERY little carbs. I have GOT to break this sweet craving, snacking all the time, eating whatever i want, habit that i have done this week.

I did have my coffee in the morning. i use real sugar (sometimes Honey) and liquid creamer. I cannot use artificial sugar due to migraines.

I had a serving of almonds throughout the day.
For lunch, i had a can of tuna (was SHOCKED that i could eat the entire can!) mixed with a small amount of light mayo, a squirt of mustard and a teaspoon of dill relish.

I PLANNED to walk, pushing the kiddos in the jogger, but that never happened. I DID work out at curves (something i usually do 6 days a week)
for supper, i had mozzerella cheese stick, 2 pieces of turkey rolled up (i left a couple of bites of this because i got that 'don't take another bite or you might be sorry' feeling. we were about to leave to go to a football game, and did NOT want to PB there so i stopped!

after the game, i was hungry, but didn't feel like making anything. I ended up eating 2 spoons of reduced fat peanut butter. it was easy, quick, and tasted YUMMY!

Looking back, i realize i didn't eat much today, but i truly was not hungry.  I have to get back to listening to my body, and not falling for head hunger. 

The only time i was hungry was last night.  The peanut butter did the trick and i was no longer hungry.

I have to get better with my water. i don't know why it's so hard lately. it's the only thing i drink, besides when i drink protein shakes. Maybe it's because it's not SOOOO hot anymore.

my goal today is to make sure i get PLENTY of water

and LOTS of protein. Even if i have to add a protein drink.

*something about me: I'm a scale whore. I weigh everyday. SEVERAL. TIMES. A. DAY.
I move my ticker when it goes down, but not when it goes up.

7 1/2 months

It's been 7 1/2 months and i'm FINALLY deciding to start this.

I'll try to go back and fill in the past months.

band date: 3-03-09
starting weight: 191 (it was higher than that at one time, but at my WLS consult it was this)
current weight: 124  (the scale actually said 127 this morning, but there is NO way i gained 3 pounds overnight!!  remember, i don't change when i go up...i just work hard to get it back DOWN!)
goal weight: 120 (thinking of changing it to 114 and then possilby to 109 if it's not too hard to maintain. I'm only 4'10.5")
PS consult: 11-12-09
plan to have PS: 3-??-2010

Today is the first day of low carbs, NO snacking, drinking water, in attempts to get my snacking under control.
I went on a binge yesterday of sweets and i haven't been eating very good in the week before that either.
i had an unfill of 1 cc on Oct 7th because i was getting tighter and having reflux.
Before that i had not had a fill since April 23!
my band DEFINITELY gets tighter with my cycle.
I'm thinking of having .5 cc's put back in next week. the Dr. wanted me to wait 2 weeks to see what the unfill would do.
he even mentioned that my band could have possibly slipped due to being so close to goal. I'm convinced it's not that and that i was just too tight because by the night of getting 1 cc taken out, all was fine!
I WAS at my sweet spot for quite a while and now....i can eat just about anything! sometime i can eat way too much too!

ok, this was way more than i was going to put in this post. i planned to post old stuff first, working my way to the beginning.

i'm tired of not replying to all the blogs i read, so i set this up!!

10/10/09

No restriction. 
that's a scary thing.
i can't eat too much bread or it reminds me it's there, but noting else is giving me warnings to Stop.

The Dr. said to wait 2 weeks.  If i don't get some control, i'm going to gain before going back.

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

10/07/09

I've been having some things going on that i'm convinced have been affecting the band. my period has been here or trying to start again for more of the month than NOT.


I'm on right now and i've been having trouble with even drinking! Not that i couldn't drink, but that it gave me that stuck feeling most of the time. even in the evenings.

I was starting to get reflux at night, and even in the daytime if i wasn't upright for at least 3-4 hours after drinking or eating.

at first i thought maybe it was from getting stuck and not sticking to liquids or mushies long enough, or not chewing or sipping carefully, but when making sure i did things right, let the band have some time off (liquids and mushies) and it didn't feel any different, i called for an appointment.

I went in this morning. The Dr. and i talked and he thought 1 cc out would be good. THAT scared me. i was hoping for HALF of that at the most.

He was concerned that since i've lost a significant amount of weight in this amount of time that it could have slipped due to the band not having as much fat under it.

he told me to try this amount for 2 weeks. if i still have trouble, we will UNFILL the entire thing and go from there! YIKES! He was hopeful that i would have INSTANT relief and that when things settle down, if i needed a little more (if i'm eating too much/not losing) that i can go in for a little bit (i'm thinking .5 cc since the 1 has been tight for a while).

i didn't drink my coffee this morning before the appointment because even my coffee was giving me trouble the last couple of days! I came home after my appointment, made coffee, and AAAAHHHHHHHHH.....it's GOING DOWN FINE!!!! NO stuck feeling, no reflux....

now, i hope i still have restriction when it comes to eating...and i don't go overboard if i don't!!! i'm SOOOO close to where i want to be...i don't want to go backwards!!!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

9/29/09

i guess i'm doing what i did a few months ago when i wouldn't lose for 2 weeks or more, then down 3 pounds at a time..


this morning.... 124

ONE pound to be what the charts say is a NORMAL weight!!
FOUR pounds to goal (until i change it!)

no headache this morning...I hope it doesn't show up again.

I had to leave curves yesterday after 1 round because my head throbbed when i did the machines (i was ok on the recovery boards). then, it made me puke. i left.

ended up taking my imitrex even thought i really didn't want to. i wanted to see if the patch was working.

I can't believe i'm so close to goal.

if i lower my goal to 114, that's 10 pounds to go. (BMI 23)
if i lower it to 109, that's 15 pounds to go. (BMI 22)
although i believe 109 would be too low for ME even though i'm very short.

i guess i'm just thinking out loud.

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

9/28/09

September 28--125!


2 pounds to a NORMAL weight and 5 to goal (goal for NOW, anyhow!)

Was put on an estrogen patch today to see if it will help my hormonal migraines, i hope it doesn't do crazy things to my body, like me GAIN!!

went back home to visit this past weekend and everyone told me how great i look. that was some GREAT motivation!

went to eat out with my father and did eat very much, he commented on it. I just told him my migraine was making me sick and i was afraid of getting sick if i ate anymore (which was part of it!)

I also went eat with my brothers, mom & step-dad. only mom knows about the band. I was sitting way at the end of 16 people at the table, so no one noticed.. it was OBVIOUS my head hurt (i could barely look up from the glare of the sun coming through the windows) so that was not a problem.

My band seems to be tight right now. not enough that i can't eat or drink, but it is making me REALLY sip in the mornings, NOTHING COLD, and not more than a cup of food...probably even less than that at a time. My TOM is coming again (the reason for the migraines) so i'm sure it's only tight until i start, then i'll be back to my 'sweet spot".

I went into the LAP-BAND® Dr.'s office this morning just to weigh in. it said 128 (i was clothed and shoes on...which is what my scale said when i weighed at home too (125 naked)

she noted it in my chart and said, wow...GREAT JOB!

i asked what was the last weight in the chart. it was 140!

HA! i hope the Dr. sees that! I remember him telling me at that appointment that my body may be happy at that weight. i told him NO WAY!!!

i'm still not 'there' yet. getting closer, but not yet!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

9/15/09

Yesterday, Sept 14, 2009....127!

woo hoo!

4 pounds till NORMAL BMI

We had a 'boot camp' game going on at curves (those measurements in the above post), and i WON! you got points for weight loss, inches lost, workouts per week, buying the monthly shirt, having someone visit curves, someone join curves, going to the weight management class. the only thing extra i did was bought the shirt because i liked it. the rest of my points were from inches and weight lost and my workouts. I usually go 6 times a week (i've missed very few saturdays).

I won a PRETTY silver curves overnight bag.

at first i thought, oh, this will make a nice gift to my mom because i just don't use bags often...and that one is not big enough for when we go out of town (it's more for one night).

by the time i drove home, i had changed my mind. it will be PERFECT for my trip to the PS consult (we are sleeping in TX the night of my appointment) and for the night before my surgery!

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9/08/09

I'm plugging right along. the weight it coming off steadily...and i'm more than thrilled! EVERYONE has been noticing and commenting on it. these last 10 pounds have REALLY made a HUGE difference in my appearance.


today ended a promotion at curves, so i had to get measured and weighed. It was for 4 weeks.

I lost 11 pounds (according to them...i must have been UP on the day i weighed in and LOW today because i don't recall ever losing 11 pounds in 4 weeks besides in the VERY beginning!) anyhow....

i lost 2" in my boobs
4" in my waist
4" in my abs
3" in my hips
2" in my thighs
1.5" in my arms
HOLY COW! my waist is now 29.5" DOWN from 45" from my first measurements (which isn't from my highest weight! YIKES!) that's 15.5"! I'm only 4'11" (4'10.5" actually...LOL) i was as round as i was tall...or short if you will! LOL

I'm really excited with my arms. i have a little wiggle action going on at the bottom, but very little! muscles are filling it out nicely!!!

my legs, holy moly..... they are TONED UP! i get asked at LEAST 5 times a week now, WHAT do you DO to get your legs so muscular?!

to ME....my face is still big.... everyone says no though. i just have a BIG HEAD...runs in the family. LOL

and my belly. it's the place that just wants to hold on to the very end. in clothes, it's not THAT bad, but nothing fits right, i won't tuck shirts in either. if i could lose the rest, JUST there...i'd be doing good.

my butt could use some fat...it's SOOOO flat. i've NEVER had a butt.

i CANNOT wait until November for the PS appointment. if we hadn't planned a trip around the appointment, i would consider moving it up. i'll survive though, and it will be less time between the consult and the actual surgery this way too. I HAVE to have it in march. THAT can't be moved. we have to make sure taxes are in (we don't want to finance any of it), hubby needs to be able to take off, and my mom needs to be able to help. March is probably the soonest all of those things would fall into place.

I took new pics yesterday. i need to upload them and compare to the 44 pounds lost pics. Oh, i'm 63 pounds down!!!

That's only 8 pounds to my original goal (i'm thinking i'm going to lower it. I'm thinking i will keep doing what i'm doing and if i lose after i get to 120, then i do. GOOD! if i maintain, then good! I'll do that until i see the PS and see what he says. if he thinks i should lose more, then i have time. if he thinks he will take off the parts i'm trying to still get rid of, and take a few more pounds during surgery, then i'll be there already! i want him to have enough fat to do the fat into the bootie like he did for Josie, since i have NO BOOTIE!!)

I got my 6 month blood work script in to go do...it seems like i just did my 3 month (they were a little late sending it, and i took my time having it done)! I still haven't had to get a fill since April 23! I do like going in to the Dr's office though....he always tells me i'm doing wonderful and that i look great. He told me at my last appointment that my body might be happy where i am (i was around 140 or a little less i think).....i wonder what he would say NOW!! I know what i'd tell him.....NOPE, my body isn't happy with THAT...i'm going down, down, DOWN!!!

i LOVE MY BAND!!!!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

9/01/09

I don't know if the predisone i'm on (i have poison ivy from yard work) is helping things along or what, but holy cow


....weighed this morning and i'm 130!!!

either i'm at my sweet spot, where i can eat just about anything, but small portions and stay full....or the steriods have UPPED my metabolism and i'm not letting myself eat all day, so i'm losing...but I'll take it!!

7 pounds to a normal weight!

10 pounds to goal!

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8/31/09

8/31/09

Down to 132 this morning!!
could i POSSIBLY make 60 pounds gone by my 6 month band date?!?!!? (8/3/09)
I'm going to eat great, exercise and get my water in....
I CAN DO THIS!! I'm a lot closer than i thought i would be to making this goal!!
that will also put me 8 pounds to a NORMAL weight range and 11 pounds to goal!

I had LOTS of people tell me i was so skinny this weekend! it was VERY uplifting.

THEN, i saw pictures and i was NOT happy. I still look so puffy... if i'm not standing up STRAIGHT and TALL, it showed every little (and big) imperfection !

I know in my head i'm MUCH thinner than i was before the band, but i'm still far from being happy with what i see.

I know most won't change until after PS because the flab is just not ever going to tone up completely....

I CANNOT wait until my consult and most of all for MARCH when it will be cut off and the girls were they belong!!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

8/27/09

today, i looked in the mirror and thought, WOW...when did my collar bones start sticking out so much...mean, i remember a while back thinking, could that be collar bones starting to show...now, they are DEFINITELY sticking out...a lot! i'm SURE it didn't happen overnight, but gosh, i didn't 'see' it until now!


I want to have a bit of lipo on the inner thigh...the rest of my legs have hardly any fat on them.

i bet that was scary having a unfill....we think the weight will come back over night!

I must have kick started something with how busy i've been this last week (we are getting the house ready for the little's b-day party. Our family doesn't come this way very often, and this is the one time we get a LOT of them to come. I use it as my reason to clean house from top to bottom...base boards to molding and everything in between! The yard too!)

As i said before, my weight has SLOOOOOOOWED down a LOT....well, i weighed this morning..133!!! 2 pounds from 60 pounds gone! i did NOT think i would make 60 pounds by my 6 month mark (9/3/09) and i'm thinking i CAN do it now! 131 here i come!!!!

My goal is coming up quick...wow! i knew i would be successfull with my band, because i was determined to make this work, but wow.... i'm losing an average of 10 pounds a month since march and it's STAYING OFF!!!

I cannot wait until Saturday. there are some people that have not seen me since before surgery! can you imagine what THEIR reaction will be!!!

my 6's are up, on, and BUTTONED too! the pooch under the waist isn't pretty....and i wouldn't be comfortable ALL day in them, but wow, wow, wow....i can put them on and breathe!!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

8/22/09

just to document when i got here...

135 on 8/21/09

i weighed this when i had my fitting done for my wedding gown! I lost 5 pounds in the week before the wedding....so i can't wait to be 130! the weight i was on my wedding day!

Before i get to that, 131 will be 60 pounds GONE! (4 more pounds)
then 130- wedding day weight (5 more pounds)
after that: 123-NORMAL WEIGHT RANGE! (12 more pounds!)
121- 70 pounds gone....(14 more pounds)
120- GOAL (for now anyhow! althought if i get to 120, then have PS, that will take off a few more and i'm sure i will not care if i don't lose another pound!!!) (15 more pounds!)

it's all getting SOOOOO close! the pounds are coming off MUCH slower these days, but as long as they keep going DOWN....I'll eventually get there!!

I was weighed and measured at curves yesterday. I'll also add measurements i do in addition to what they do:
:amount loss (actual measurements)

Neck: 1/4" (12.75)
arms: 1" (10)
top of chest: 2" (35 1/2)
boobs: 3" (38) (i REALLY think this was from a different bra or something!)
under boobs: 3" (32)
waist: 2 1/2" (32.5) (WOW!! that's 12.5" from the first measurements!)
abs: 1 1/2" (37.5) (11.5" gone from my BELLY!!)
hips: 3" (35)
thighs: 1 1/2" (19.5)
knees: 1" (12)
calves: 1/2" (13 1/4)
ankles: 1/2" (7.5)

i wish i had measurements from my starting weight!

I'm also going to start making myself do 10 miles a week. walk or run, 1 or 10 a day...whatever it takes to do 10 miles a week!

NSV: last night we went to a concert. me and the friend that came with us were talking about jeans and being short (she's right around my height) and having to wear heels if we don't get our jeans hemmed because even the 'short' sizes are long. She asked me, "what, you wear about a 6?' HEEHEE....it's SHOWING....i "look" my size. I still don't see it, but it was GREAT to hear it from an outsider (ie. NOT HUBBY).

Hubby came with me the other day to look for shirts. he LOVED this bright pink, low cut shirt. I on the other hand thought it was tight because it touched me....he, thought it looked great.

I put it one to wear to the concert and said out loud that i didn't think i was going to wear it because i would be tugging on it all night.

he told me i'm too hard on myself, and don't know what i see in the mirror because it looked great.

i ended up wearing it, because i knew he wouldn't let me go out looking ridiculous, so he must have meant it.

While we were walking into the building, he told me he was proud of me because he knew it was WAY out of my comfort zone and i looked great. :-)

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

8/17/09

I am doing great with exercising. i do something everyday except sunday. Sometimes i do walk and run on sundays, but i don't make myself on that day.


Eating on the other hand, hasn't been so good. i still get full quick, but i seem to want to eat sooner. I feel like i'm making really bad choices at times.

I went to my LAP-BAND® Dr. today. I made the appointment about a week and a half ago, for a fill. I didn't end up getting one. I was worried i would end up too tight if i got one. over the weekend, i had that same tight feeling i had a while back. the strange thing is, i think it being caused at the same time i'm having migraines!

The Dr. said i probably was getting hungry quicker from adding the running to my exercise. He didn't think i needed a fill, thinks i'm being impatient, and that i'm doing EXCEPTIONAL (his words!) .

i think i'm at a plateau and i want to see the scale MOVE DOWN! LOL

I've been at 137 for what seems like forever and i want to get past 135 then out of the 130's! I'd be happy with staying at ANYTHING in the 120's for forever (ok, until my PS which will help me look like i've lost more! )

EDITED to add: i weighed right after posting this and i'm at 136!! (and at the END of the day!!)WOO HOO!!! i hope i've broke the plateau!!

OH, i don't think i mentioned it here. I made my appointment for the PS! i'm going to go to Dr. Adam. the one Josie used. My consult appointment is Nov. 12! I want to lose about 17 pounds by then. I'll see what he says and go from there. I will schedule my surgery for March. that will give me time to lose more or learn to maintain for quite a few months before surgery.

I think being at 120, then having surgery, it will make me look like i'm closer to my OMG goal! i'd be over the moon if so!!!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

7/29/09

Ouch. I. am. sore! but it's NOT going to stop me from dancing!


139...even! i lost a pound ANNNNNND....... I am now OUT of the 140's!!!!

I LOVE my band!!!

i worked out at curves yesterday, but did NOT walk/run. my legs H.U.R.T! my workout at curves showed that too. my calories burned were WAY down from the day before because i just couldn't push as hard as usual because of the soreness in my legs.

I will go to curves again today (i go everyday except sunday) and even if i don't try to run today, i'm going to go walk (maybe i'll put the littes in the double jogger and take them walking). Just so my muscles stretch....try to work the soreness away!

Oh, and my (overfill feeling?) tightness is gone. I still get full quick, but it's not causing everything to make me think i'm going to get stuck with the first bite. Last night i made enchilada's for the family. i cut a few bits up for the little ones, who didn't eat it and i tried it. i was able to eat it! i couldn't do bread or tortillias before! i was full REALLY quick, but hey, THAT'S the restriction i WANT! i want to eat ANYTHING, but not nearly as much as i used to.

I did my lab work friday before last and hadn't heard from the Dr's office yet so i called them yesterday. I wasn't sure if I was suppose to call for an appointment or THEY would call ME. she said they haven't gotten all the results back yet and when they did, they would call and make an appointment. I'll see where i'm at with restriction then and talk to him about it depending on how my weight loss is going. at my last appointment which was for my port insicion not healing completely(and it was over 3 months AFTER surgery) we both agreed i was at my sweet spot. I guess from losing more weight, you lose that and could need more fills....we will see when i go for an appointment.

did i say I LOVE MY BAND?!

my goal of being AT goal for my birthday doesn't seem like the impossible anymore. Bring on OCTOBER!!! I'll be looking great at 38!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

7/28/09

what a difference a day makes.

Yesterday i did great.
i was sticking to my shakes.
i went to curves.
I got a pedometor in the mail from my insurance.
I put it on about half way of my day.
a friend asked if i wanted to go walk/run with her in the evening.
i decided i should eat something if i was going to run later, so i had TUNA FISH.
we did 2 3/4 miles and i RAN almost HALF OF IT!!
I was SOOOO proud of myself! she was too! she has been in this running club for over a year and has been doing this program for a few weeks after a break from running and i kept up with her!
i can remember not being able to run to the end of our driveway to catch one of the little ones from going into the street and now i'm running MILES....ok, not all at once (the longest distance we ran all together was 1/4 of a mile) but it was much much farther than the end of my DRIVEWAY!

the bonus....this morning i was 140! EVEN.
an OUNCE and i'm OUT OF THE 140's!!!
I'm using that as MOTIVATION and i WILL stay on track today!
I tracked over 14000 steps and i didn't even have the pedometor on for the first half of the day!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

7/27/09

what a weekend. i don't know WHAT was wrong with me. oh wait. it was probably that i had SNACKS in the house to begin with!


I could not...or i should say, WOULDN'T stop eating. a handful (or 2) of mini oreos, ice cream (and NOT my normal frozen yogurt that is lower in cals and fat), honey teddy grams, almonds (i'm usually ok with a few at a time a couple times a day....try HANDFULS, ALL DAY). thank goodness they are gone. all of it.

i'm sure it still wasn't even CLOSE to what i used to do. I would have finished an unopen bag of any or all of this back before the band. the bags were almost empty, but still, i DON'T snack like that anymore.

i know some of it was boredom. Hubby was working evening shift, leaving me home with the kids from 3:30 until i went to bed.

i usually have much more control than that though.

the good thing is that i'm back to 141 on the scale (but could KICK myself because i probably would be in the 130's had i stayed on track all of the past week!)

i'm going to go back on liquids again, like i did to break my cycle of snacking a couple of weeks ago. Protein shakes and water...for a couple of days. it seems to kick my butt back on plan.

NSV- Saturday while working out at curves, a lady asked me if i've been going there a lot. i told her i've been a member for 2 months. She said, no, i mean, you have been coming in working out a lot....days in a week.

I said, oh...yes. i TRY to come everyday they are open, if not to workout, but that that is MY TIME to be ALONE (NO KIDS!).

she said, it shows....that she sees the difference and that i look great!

wow....a stranger noticed! (and what did i do? came home and SNACKED! ARGH! i need to work on using those things as MOTIVATION and not a license to CHEAT!)

my magic bullet is calling....time for my shake.

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

7/24/09

so, today, i was measured at curves. I don't pay much attention to the scale since it's always different from mine, and i know where i started on mine. (they said i lost 7 pounds)

I measured more than they did (body parts) so i included what they measure and what i do:

surgery, or before because i didn't take measurments!: now: Difference:
weight: 191 141 50 pounds!
Neck: 15.5 13 2.5
arms: 14.5 11 3.5
top of chest (above boobs) 44 37.5 7.5
boobs: 48 41 7
under boobs 40.5 33.5 7
waist 45 35 10
abs (right at belly button) 49 39 10
hips 43 38 5
thighs 23.25 21 2.25
knees (that fat part) 14.25 13 1.25
calves 15.5 13.75 1.75
ankles (i have little ankles!) 8.5 8 .5

it wouldn't let me type it out in columns! so i did colors!

wow! 10 inches off of my waist! i didn't wear 'sizes' before....i was in 'elastic' because i still had maternity clothes in the house! so i don't know what size i was but i'm now in my 8's from before me almost 3 year old!

i'm actually up a pound 142 not 141....since getting home from our get away, but i have not had my water like i should, and i ate super salty food last night...but i'm not counting that yet.... i have done well today, getting my water and protien in and will see what the scale says on Monday, my usual weigh in (although i weigh EVERYDAY! LOL)

i feel like i'm stalling again....at this weight. I hope like the last time, i stay here for a little bit, but when it starts dropping again, i drop a couple pounds each week! I'm getting so close to my goal!!! i want it GONE!

i got my VS swimsuits in...ACK.. i should have gone with LARGE tops and small bottoms! hopefully losing in my back and the flab under my arms and chest...but not the boobs... it will fit better. i'm sure DH won't be complaining of the girls spilling out though! LOL the bottoms, other than the roll right were the tops fit, they FIT! not perfect, but they aren't cutting off my circulation!

i hope they aren't too big (did i just say that? never mind, i will find smaller ones to fit!) by the time i go to my consult or by surgery!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

7/17/09

I got my pics up (on LBT, you have to be a friend to see them), and it made me realize i need to not delete any pics that someone happens to snap of me ( i didn't have many from surgery to now! I'm always behind the camera and hide from it the rest of the time!).


I ended up calling the Dr. because of being tight. it did losen some though. I was able to eat turkey chili yesterday and had my shakes just fine. i was only able to eat less than a 1/2 cup at a time but they said that was fine. i question it because only eating that much and only eating 3 times a day, there is NO WAY of getting the calories they recommend in. although, i'm not hungry if i drink water in between. yesterday, i also added a protien drink in between because i would have had less than 500 calories!

I'm doing MUCH better with the snacking (NOT doing it!). it had gotten way out of hand, and i cannot let myself do that!

since my period stopped, i have had a migraine EVERYDAY! boo hoo.... i even went to my regular Dr.'s office yesterday to let them take my blood pressure JUST incase that was the problem. it was fine, a tiny bit elevated for me, but the migraine probably was the cause. I pray it doesn't come back today.

we are going out of town Sunday night. Spending the night at my parents, spending Monday with a friend of mine that lives out of state but is coming into town to visit her family. i haven't seen her since i was preggo with the littlest one (he's almost 2 now). we will leave the littles with my parents, the older boys will go to thier dads, and hubby and i are going spend the night in New Orleans...alone! WOO HOO! we are staying right next to CHEESECAKE BISTRO! YUMMY! i told hubby i will order a piece of cheesecake as soon as we get there since it will probably take me 2 days to eat ONE piece! LOL we will be doing lots of walking, so i'll walk it off, not concerned about that! i also checked for a curves and while hubby does a webinar, i will go work out (if i can get to the curves without getting lost or scared to walk N.O. alone! LOL)

yesterday hubby ordered me 2 bikinis from VICTORIA SECRET! they were having a clearance sale on them, plus i had a code for more off, so they were SUPER CHEAP! he was going to get 3 but by the time we went back to order them, they had sold out of the top on one of them. I went with Medium (i find they run small) knowing right now it's NOT going to fit. My plan is when i go for my consult with the PS, i will have a guide of where i want my scar to fall (hiding it under a swimsuit will be my goal). we have a boat, and i dream of the day to wear a bikin PROUDLY riding out on the front of the boat, without worrying about hiding when we passed other people (some skinny minny 20 something year old!) watch out cause next summer i WILL be sitting out on the front of our boat in my itty bitty bikini catching some sun!

and last but NOT LEAST.....i have lost FIFTY POUNDS! i had hoped by the 5th month to lose 50, and i did it already!

2 pounds to get to the 130's
18 pounds to have a normal BMI-no longer overweight
21 pounds to get to my goal
then i will see how much more i want to lose.

i will make my PS consult when i get to 120. that will give me a few months to lose more if i want to or the surgeon thinks the results will be better!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

7/14/09

you know how it is though. when it slows, you want it to go so much faster! I really need to get back to my eating healthy again!

funny thing, i haven't had a fill since April 23, and i'm so tight today that i have to really make sure i take even liquids (i'm doing protien shakes all day (and water) to snap myself out of this snacking/junk food trend i have started) SUPER slow... i felt like i was going to start sliming on WATER earlier today!!

My period just ended yesterday, so i would have thought i would have been tight right before or DURING that time...but NOPE. TODAY, the day after it stopped! strange!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

7/14/09

I'm working on uploading my pics....it's scary! i still can't believe my size and that i thought for a half a second that maybe i DIDN'T need to do this....i should have done it a LOT sooner!


I am down another pound. 47 pounds gone.... so close to 50 but i seem to be slowing down. of course with all the snacking and junk that has been around the house....I only have MYSELF to blame for eating the way i have. today, i am doing liquids. my protein shakes (carnation essentials with egg whites for added protien). I need to get myself out of this rut. i wasn't even craving junk anymore, but now that i have let myself eat it, i want ONLY that.

on to NSV....i had hubby get down the box of clothes that was put in the attic when we moved since i was pregnant at the time and figured i would not fit in them for a while....then the 2nd pregnancy...and now the 'baby' is almost 2 and i have no excuse to still have 'baby' weight. it was labeled 'clothes i won't fit into for a very long time' box.

it had a mix of sizes from 8's down to 4's....the 8's ALL FIT!!!!! i was SO excited that i went through my closet and tried on pants.... my 8's fit! i even had a pair of 6's fit! (ok, it's old navy and for me, old navy runs big because when i bought that pair of pants, all the rest of my jeans were 8's)...but OMG did that feel GREAT!!

of course, it didn't stop me from shoveling the crap into my mouth!

I'm joining a running club with my neighbor this weekend. I hope this boost my motivation, beats my slowdown of weight and makes me stop and think before putting the junk into my mouth!!!!

ok, the pics are on my computer...i'm going figure out how to upload them to the site.....shield your eyes...it's NOT a pretty site!  (these are on LBT, you can only see them if you are a friend)

ACK!~

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7/07/09

as for pics, i need to take some. i have befores.... oh my goodness, i cannot believe i let myself get to that point.  i don't want the world to see them, since i'm one of those who hasn't told the world i've had this done.


I had gone down another pound, but between the 4th and my period about to come, i'm up a pound. I usually want to eat everything in site the week before (although that is still MUCH less than i USED to eat) but USUALLY lose a couple of pound as soon as it starts. I hope i didn't screw that up with all the snacking i did over the holiday and the last few days! I threw most of the stuff out and the kids finished the rest, so i just won't bring that kind of stuff back in the house.

Oh....well, this coming weekend, my oldest is turning 17! he's having friends over and doing pizza, snacks and cake....i'll have to stay away from it and make sure everything is GONE when they leave! that shouldn't be TOO hard with a bunch of 16-17 year old kids here!

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6/29/09

I am now 46 pounds down!!

4 pounds to losing FIFTY POUNDS! WOW!!!

6 pounds to be in the 130's!

10 until my Labor Day challenge goal (135!)

We went to New Orleans this past weekend...i LOST WEIGHT while gone! WOO HOO! I worked out while gone, ate good at most meals, but ate what i wanted when we went to a nice place (cheesecake bistro!) and i STILL LOST!!

I was so worried i wouldn't be able to eat, or would get stuck, since no one knows i've had this....and it was all fine!!

of course not one person said a SINGLE work about me having lost the weight.....50 pounds was not noticed? REALLY?

oh well.... I haven't lost it for THEM...i did it for ME, and i feel SO MUCH BETTER about MYSELF!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

6/22/09

It's now 16 weeks out and i'm down 44 pounds!
out of the 150's!
no longer be obese!
12 pounds to my labor day challenge goal (i hope to beat that!)
17 pounds to be the weight i was when i got married! (would love to meet THIS for labor day!)
27 pounds to be the lowest weight i've been since having childern and my 'goal' weight.
32-37 pound to my OMG goal!
My birthday is at the end of Oct. and i would LOVE to be at goal by then. it would take a lot of work, but not impossible! It's a little more than 18 weeks away. that's an average of 1.5 pounds a week...that's doable! Then i could maintain my weight (or get to my OMG goal) until the beginning of the year, when we would be ready financially for the cost of PS!

I had to go to the DR. (my LAP-BAND® dr.) last week because after 16 weeks, the incision for my port was irritated and had infection! he said it was on the surface, and not to worry, it would be ok and not cause probelms. it's already doing great. he said it was probably the suture knot being rejected by my body....i had the same thing happen for one of my sections.

he was impressed with my progress, and said no to a fill. i wasn't there for one, and really didn't think i needed one since i've been steadily losing again. I will definitely wait until my next cycle is over to decide when and if i need a fill. The Dr. really thinks i'm at my sweet spot. some days i think yes, others, not. some days i think i should be able to eat more, others, i'm thinking i need a fill! LOL

I finished a month of curves, and i am pleased with the results. I lost 8 1/2 pounds and 10"!

I sent an email to a Plastic surgeon my SIL used to ask questions about WHEN to start the process of PS. I wanted to know when i should go in for my first consult (if his waiting list is long...i don't want to wait 6 months after i have my appointment if i'm ready to have surgery. i rather go 6 months early, find out what i will have done and the cost. and put it off if i'm not ready...rather than be ready and have to wait! )

I can't wait to hear back!!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

6/01/01

I did curves YEARS ago because i wanted an all women's gym to go to. after i lost lots of weight, i started at the gym with my brother who body builds and LOVED it!


Not confident enough to go to the gym at the times i can go (in the evenings when it's probably the busiest. so, for now. i will go to curves.

I seem to be at a standstill right now. Just when i was thinking maybe i need another fill (i'm really not sure...) i went and had my very first PB today! I think i was just eating too fast. it was on grilled fish and veggies. oh well, i guess 120 something days before it finally happened to me wasn't bad! I'm wondering if my cycle is coming around again. i seemed to have gotten tighter this time last month also. i have also been drinking coffee every morning because i'm tighter in the morning. i'm even reminded by water that i have to SIP SIP SIP in the mornings. this morning, i didn't drink coffee because i went to curves early and didn't want to only have coffee in my to work out.

I plan to have PS when i get closer to my goal also. I've been starting to look for surgeons in my state and possibly in TX since i'm closer to Houston than i am to New Orleans. I want a full TT and breast lift/possible implants also.

I'm VERY short, so i need to get into 6's or 4's. if i wanted to get to the lower end of my ideal weight, gosh, i would be in 0's....but that's not gonna happen. not after 4 kids. (i wore kids sizes until i had kids!!)my smallest size i got into after the first 2 kids has been some 4's...but that lasted a VERY SHORT TIME before i started gaining it all back again! :-(

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

5/23/09

It's now 12 weeks out and i'm down 38 pounds!


4 pounds to be out of the 150's

5 pounds to no longer be obese!

23 pounds to be the weight i was when i got married!

33 pounds to be the lowest weight i've been since having childern and my 'goal' weight.

38-43 pound to my OMG goal!

I joined curves 5/21 but couldn't work out that day ( i needed an appointment), but went for my first workout the yesterday and went again toady!

I even walked after i was done yesterday!

I can SEE reaching my goal....that's such a great feeling! i NEVEr thought i would get to it before!
Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

5/5/09

I'm so happy! we went away for the weekend and I was thinking since i didn't get enough water in, that i would probably gain from eating 'out' and i'm sure that had lots of salt in the food....


I'm down!!! the scaled moved DOWN after a weekend away and not eating at home!

32 pounds GONE in 9 weeks!!

10 pounds from beating the 150's! (remember i'm VERY SHORT..... i have a LONG way to go still!

11 pounds until i'm considered JUST overweight!

29 pounds to be the weight i was when i got married!

39 pounds to the lowest i've been since having children and also my 'goal' weight.

44-49 pounds to my OMG goal!!

I plan to have PS done. I'm not sure when i should go for my consult. that's a goal i really look forward to. I'm thinking about 20 pounds from goal i will go and see what they say.

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

4/29/09

8 weeks and i am down 30 pounds! I wish i could 'see' it more. You would think with how short i am that 30 pounds would make a HUGE difference...but i just don't see it.


Hubby and i will be visiting my family (i hadn't seen them since Good Friday) on Friday, I hope someone notices.

I won't get my hopes up and i won't let it ruin our weekend if my mom doesn't though.... she didn't say a single word about it the last 2 times she saw me.

I'll have to go visit a friend of mine who hasn't seen me since way befor surgery and she doesn't know i had this done. I'll see if she says anything.

I still find my belly swollen though. i bought 2 shirts yesterday and was surprised that a large still 'fit's' around my mid-section. i'm more shocked that a large fits around my boobs better.... it's usually the other way around. by the time i get a shirt to fit the boobs, the belly part looks like a maternity top!

oh well... at least the scale is moving in the right direction.

I did get my 2nd fill on April 23 and for a few days i felt what restriction was...with liquids. i finally had to sip sip sip...but that's gone now. I stayed on liquids for a couple of days, then mushies, by the time i got to regular food, i was able to eat as usual. if i hurried or didn't chew enough (but still didn't have to chew chew chew chew) i could kinda feel something that i KNEW i should slow down and chew more.

so, i will be making an appointment for my 3rd fill around May 21.

in a way, i'm glad i don't have REALLY good restriction just yet. Hubby and I are going out of town ALONE!!! We will be eating in public for all of our meals and i don't want to get stuck while eating out!

Once i get good restriction, i will 'practice' at home before eating out.

everything else is fine, i'm still not working out...went walking a couple of times. I do not know WHAT my problem is about that. i LOVE to be outside, i LOVE to work out.... and i know once i start i will enjoy it. i just cannot make myself stick to a plan!

i guess when i hit a plateau, i will have to in order to get the scale moving again and i'm LUCKY i've lost the weight i have so far with just changing my eating!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

4/17/09

Hi ladies...i have not been good about coming on here and posting...shame on me!


I have not done very good over this Easter break either!

I bought NO candy, but everyone else made up for that! ARGH!

everyday i told myself i would NOT get into the candy, and i did anyhow! i threw all of it away yesterday! if i couldn't get the willpower to stay away, i was taking it out of the house!

I have slacked with my water because i wasn't doing good with everything else either!

It's only been a month and i'm slacking? that's NOT RIGHT! I HAVE to get back on track! holidays/going out of town didn't help me at all!

i am up 2 pounds from my lowest because of my slacking!

I called yesterday because i'm not feeling restricion and i wanted to make an appointment so i can have a day to look forward to get a fill. I can't go the week that would make four weeks from my last one, so they made it for next Thursday. April 23. i don't go in until 2 because the Dr. does surgery's in the morning. I will try to do liquids that morning and then liquids for 2 days, mushies 2(instead of liquids one mushies one like they told me the last time).

i want to or i should say, NEED to be accountable for what i eat, and why...i know i'm eating out of BORDOM often, and i HAVE to stop that!!!

wanna B thin again...is almost there!

4/01/09

here's my update.


I went for my 4 week appointment on Monday. I lost 3 more pounds! considering the day before my scale hadn't moved yet, i was excited for that!

I got 3 cc's in my band.

i have a few questions.

Does your Dr's make you do liquids and or mushies for a day or 2?

The nurse gave me a card that said liquids the rest of the day then mushies the next. then regular diet after that. BUT.... after the Dr. did my fill, he said liquids and mushies the rest of the day and regular diet the day after. was the difference that i had one of the first appointments of the day? as opposed to later in the day when i would have needed more time on soft stuff?

I still don't have what i would consider restriction. i can drink water like normal, i don't have to sip at all. I wanted a salad yesterday but didn't want to go buy all the stuff if i couldn't eat it, so we went to a place with a buffet. i fixed a small salad (with a couple of croutons) and was able to eat it with NO trouble. I also had a baked chicken leg (i was worried about doing chicken breast in public without knowing how dry and if it would go down ok, so i stuck with a more moist peice of meat) about a tablespoon of sweet potatoes, a couple of tiny bites of bread, a bite of mac n cheese (was feeding the babies and wanted to see if it was hot and NOT THINKING... tasted it!) and about a 1/2 cup of chili. when i gave the kids dessert, i had a couple of tiny bites of ice cream, pudding, cheesecake and choc cake. I only put about a tablespoon of each on a plate since i wasn't sure what they would eat, and that they could taste different things, and that I wouldn't overdo 'tasting' things.

it wasn't a LOT compared to what i used to be able to eat, but i still thought i didn't REALLY have to worry about tiny bits and chewing REALLY good, and that it was more than i thought i would be able to eat that soon after a fill.

i know not to go to buffets, but i wanted to have a salad with all the choices!

the scale went down again this mornig, so i'm not concerned that i 'blew it' yesterday, just surprised that i was able to eat the stuff i did, and the amount without being sick.

(truth be told, i would have thought the salad, or the chili would have made me FULL...i was definitely FULL after lunch, but shocked what it took to get there. i 'm sure i could have stopped sooner and been ok, but i didn't feel or get sick after)

ok. another question. I got my fill monday. 3 cc's. the Dr. said i didn't have to schedule another appointment, but if in 4 weeks i felt i wanted/needed another fill to call and they could fit me in easily. Since i don't have restriction alreday, does that mean i won't in 4 weeks? i mean, i wouldn't get tighter as the weeks pass, right? should i call and tell him i don't have restriction at all right now...i mean would they do anything? or should i call and make an appointmet for 4 weeks out, now? or should i wait and see how i do like this and when it's closer to 4 weeks, call if i feel the need?

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