Saturday, September 18, 2010

It's been a LONNNNNG time ....

and good and bad during that time.
I have not had restriction for a LONG time.  I had even more taken out before my PS making it less. 
I went back 2 times and i'm STILL not at my sweet spot.
I have gained....YES, after surgery to remove the skin, GAINED...
This just shows me i cannot do this alone! 
My band is there for a reason and i'm not using it like it should be.
I will be making an appointment for another fill this week.
I've stopped going to curves and started a regular type of gym.  I like the options now much better.  the same ol thing everyday with Curves was getting boring.
i WILL get this weight off before i have to go to my followup with my PS.  Even if my 6 month appointment ends up being at 7-8 months out!!
I'm still in size 6's. but at one time my 4's were getting too big (remember, i'm only 4'10 1/2" SHORT).

I had gone private, because after posting pics, i chickened out. 
I'll leave it public for a while longer and if you would like to follow, send me an email to wannabthinagain at y@hoo dot com and i'll authorize you.

I will do my best to post more often.  i KNOW it will help me to stay on track.
Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

Saturday, May 1, 2010

another thing....

I didn't mention this in any of the previous post (i just posted a VERY LONG POST catching up on my recovery)....
before surgery, i went get an unfil.  i forget what he said i had left, 1. something....because i was SOOOOO scared of throwing up after surgery. 
well, thank goodness the tightness of the muscle repair makes me feel like i'm full quickly beacuse i have NO RESTRICTION WHATSOEVER!  let's just say we went to a buffet place and i had an entire plate of full (a few bites of a BUNCH of things) and i FINISHED it. THEN, went to the dessert bar and did the same thing...bunch of bites of a bunch of things and FINISHED IT!

i don't feel hungry very often, but it is SCARY if there is food that i really like or want to eat, there is NO LIMIT to what i can put down.....bread, pasta, ANYTHING! 
SOOOOOO, Monday i have a fill appointment! LOL 

I want to go eat chinese SO BAD TOMORROW....like a last supper before i can't eat like that again!  LOL  thank goodness i've learned something in this year of being banded.  FOOD is not the most important thing.  i don't have to have it ALL right now.  i CAN go out to have chinese and have just a little and be satisfied after my restriction is back. 

also, all that salt would make me really swell and i LOOOOOOOOVE seeing my flat belly, i don't want to CAUSE it to swell!!! 

this is with my compression garment on at the end of the day, so there is swelling.
THOSE are little girl sized shorts!!  Shirt, size small.

24 days PO
 FLAT BELLY!
scar flattening & lightening
belly button covered since i'm still treating it.
my PS did the scars on the inside of it and it takes a little bit for it to 'dry' up
i LOVE MY BELLY BUTTON!!!
4 pregnacies made my old one HUGE and DEEP...it's TINY now!
i have a waist NOW...It doesn't show as much in that pic with the evening swell, but i now have a waist that goes IN instead of straight down my sides.

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

going to cheat a little...

since i didn't go back and type out the surgery story, i'm going to copy and paste some of post from LBT.

April 12, 2010

I'm back at home resting.

I don't really feel the tummy tuck incision or the breast insicisions. I mostly feel the lipo. under my arms where the bra fits and the back area. my back is very sore from not being able to stand up straight too.

he ended up doing a tiny bit of lipo at the very top of my inner thighs. he originally thought if he had done that, i would be left with extra skin, but he decided just a little bit should be ok.

he pulled the tummy muscles in tight, moved my port over a bit (when he tightened the muscles it moved my port to the middle of my belly, so he put it back to where it was at.

all my belly stretch marks are GONE! my port scare isn't completely gone, but it is RIGHT above my TT scar, so it's not visible with a swimsuit or panties on.

I went with 275 cc gel implants which should put me at a 34 D. right now, i feel like i have breast up to my collar bones! LOL i KNOW they will settle down and the swelling will reduce, but for now, it's actually funny to see them THAT large!

i haven't taken any after pics yet. i can't stand up straight and everything is still covered with steri strips, so it's hard to tell anyhow.

i cannot believe i didn't do this, but i did NOT take ANY before pics! They did take some the day before my surgery and she said she can email me those, so i figured i would use those.

The Dr. said he took off 4.7 pounds of skin off of my belly and 4 something of fat. he said i didn't have much fat at all. What he did take out, he injected back into my bootie to help contour my FLAT butt. THAT, i felt. it feels like i'm sitting on golf balls! it's not AS bad today, but I was told today i can start doing massages to help with that.

I'm sure i have left some things out (thanks to the medicine!) I'm sleeping a LOT, which until my little ones come home is a good thing....helps the time pass quicker.

as soon as i can get some pics up, i will post them.

I'm SOOOOO thirlled to be on THIS side of the flatlands!!! I cannot wait to see what it will look like when all the swelling goes down!!!

April 15, 2010
I cannot WAIT for the swelling to go down to see the contouring of my waist due to to the muscles being pulled in!!


I JUST added one after pic (on LBT), you have to be a friend to view it, and it's in the during folder.

as for the pain, the TT and the Breast do not hurt...the lipo area's....OUCH! I can only imagine had i had a LOT of lipo done! oh, and the fat injections into the but, that hurt since i have had to sit/lay down so much. it was like laying on golf balls! LOL i'm SURE it will be worth every bit of pain though!!! i have always had tailbone problems because my tailbone must have been fractured as a child and didn't heal correctly. even when overweight, it hurt to sit, without the weight, it was SO MUCH WORSE! i'm hoping the fat injections helps even just a little!

yes, the littles are still at my moms ane we are going to play it be ear as for when they are coming back. the original plan was for them to come back this weekend, but she said they can stay until Wed, possibly thursday, so we will see how i'm feeling by the weekend and go from there. i'm missing them like crazy, but i have to admit, i'm really taking advantage of taking my meds every hour i can, and getting as much rest as I can while they are gone.

each day, i feel a tiny bit better. by the end of the day, i'm totally DONE. my BACK KILLS me from walking haunched over all day.

but i would do it over again to have the results!!! i cannot wait to see what a month or 2 will look like if now looks as good as it makes me FEEL!!!

good luck to everyone that has just had surgery or about to. sorry i've not been around. Between resting A LOT from the meds and my computer went out (i'm on hubby's now....he just went buy me a new one, but it will probably be a week or 2 before it's all set up since the screen went out and he doesn't go back to work until next week. The IT at work is going to help him transfer everything.

thanks again for all the well wishes and i can't wait to keep sending updates!!!

April 17, 2010
yesterday i called my Dr.office to let them know that for 3 days in a row, i had a low enough output in my drains (and it was going down more with each day), so they let me have them out!! OH MY GOODNESS!!! what a difference that made! it's didn't hurt, it was a big, um, STRANGE feelings, but i lived through it without screaming, or hitting the nurse! lol


Ok, i have a question. the ONLY thing i had done to my thighs is at the VERY top because they touched a very little bit. WELL, my thighs, which have NEVER been big, are about three times the size the normal size! is that the swelling just working it's way out or is something wrong? it does not HURT AT ALL.

I'm feeling really good, i get tired really easy, understandably though. the tape under my breast and around the nipples make me want to scratch THROUGH my skin though! under my arms are very sore too. i did have a bit of lipo done there to, so it will lay flat once the implants settle into place.

other than that, i still do not feel my boobs (from the front, only under the arms) or my tummy tuck!

i cannot wait until the swelling goes down and i see the final results!!!

I have to add that even with the swelling, i am TOTALLY PLEASED with my results.  even if it were to stay like it is now, i would have NO REGRETS!  i'm just amazed that 'this' isn't even the final results...it's going to get even better!!! 


April 19, 2010

Thank goodness, the swelling in my thighs are going down a little more each day!! I can still feel a little soreness when i've been sitting a while and get up. After a few steps, it's not bad at all.
Wann B thin again...is almost there!



the swelling under my arms is all that i still really feel. if i'm not doing anything, it don't feel it at all, but if i move them, i feel it....like i said, mostly just VERY sore feeling.

i'm watching the scale go down more and more each day....THAT is a GREAT thing considering one day (since surgery, with the compression garment, drains, and all...i saw 145!!! i about passed out!!!!


this morning, it was down to 133, with compression garment, clothes, had already eaten and all!!

i'm so impatient...i cannot wait for the swelling to go down!

I'm completely off of all my pain meds. this morning i took 2 tylenol just because i felt stiff when i woke up (i slept the ENTIRE day yesterday! my husband was so worried about me because i hadn't taken any meds, but i slept and slept and slept....then, other than an hour (i watched Ruby at 2 a.m. because he had recorded it for me) i even slept ALL NIGHT!!


today, i'm fine. don't know what that was all about other than i REALLY needed rest!

I added some new pics in swimsuits (on LBT) this morning to my "during album". (you have to be a 'friend' to see them).

April 20, 2010
someone on LBT posted:
So glad everything is going well. I hope this means you are happy with everything that was done. Any advice for me, my surgery is in 16 days. Preop appt tommorrow. Getting real scared!
My reply:

I'm VERY happy!!! i cannot wait to see once the swelling goes down!



REST, eat healthy (it helps healing), drink lots of water, REST, let others do for you.


xi made sure i was VERY prepared for a month of not being able to do much. i shopped for a month, i cooked or bought things my hubby could cook easily for a month, i just wanted to make sure no matter how long it took to heal, i didn' t have to stress about it.


the only thing i forgot to do is get someone to come CLEAN for me!!!! 4 boys and a hubby....can you imagine after a 4-6 weeks what the bathrooms and such will be like?! LOL

you will be fine!!! GOOD LUCK!!!

May 1, 2010
I'm now 24 days PO.



i added some pics (on LBT)  that i just took (so you will see the evening swelling...which is not bad, but i LOOOOOVE the morning when it's even flatter!!) If i haven't added you as a friend, just send a request and i'll add you. the album in private. They are in the during folder.

Tummy tuck has being looking better with each passing day. still no problems and no pain.

the swelling under my arms around to my back is still there. i hope it goes away SOON!

Have i said how much i LOVE my belly button? i'm still having to clean it out and cover it but it's looking better everyday! my PS does such GREAT BB's!

my breast are feeling better each day too, slower pace (the sides...nothing else really hurt other than the extreme ITCHING!) they still feel high and tight, can't wait until they are settled!


around the areola has some places that i'm a little concerned about, but will call the dr. on monday if it continues to do this. (it has little spots that look like puss under the skin, several of the spots have popped and drained and have a little bit of blood under the skin now. my concern is that my port scar did something simular 4 months out and it left a darker spot on the scar in that one place. I don't want this to look like that.

i tried on some size 4's i had in my closet and they FIT!!!


no muffin top or anything!


i even wore them out the other day when we went shopping.


it's weird, the feel tight because the muscle repair makes you feel like you have a corset on.... but they weren't, i could put my compression garment on under them!

i still get tired really easy but i'm sure it doesn't help that i've had 2 kids sick for the past 2 weeks. The little one is waking up ALL NIGHT LONG, so i've not had more than a couple of hours of sleep at a time.


I'm planning to go back to working out (lightly) next week. I NEED it.....it's getting to me that i haven't done exercise in 4 weeks!


I cannot wait for a few months to pass to see what the results are going to look like after all the swelling and settling finishes!!!

Adding: this morning i was 126!  woo hoo!! 




Monday, April 19, 2010

Pics from 4/19/2010

Victoria Secret size small bottom and Med. tops

cannot wait for the swelling to finish going down!!

That's not stretch marks, because THOSE ARE ALL GONE!!!!!!
the marks you see are from the compression garment i have to wear for what seems like ETERNITY!!
Feeling more and more normal everyday! 
I haven't forgotten to retype everything....
i slept almost the entire day yesterday, so i wasn't online for  much at a time.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

I survived....

ARGH!!!!! i guess that's what happens when i try posting at 3 a.m.! 
i had a post all typed out, hit a button, and POOF it all disappeared!
i'll put the pic back now and when i'm more awake and can make my thoughts sound like i'm not on meds (good ones too!) i'll try retyping it!

let's just say, i'm THRILLED and i can only imagine when the swelling goes down, i will feel like one hot mama!!! (one without all the stretchmarks to show because he was able to CUT THEM ALL AWAY!!  WOOO HOOOOOO!!!!!!

i added my 'before' pic just as a comparison, and i kinda edited the after one incase playboy gets ahold of it....i want good money if they are gonna use MY pic! ;-)  heehee

Saturday, March 27, 2010

guess i won't get the discount....

after 11 days from now.
Thats ok though, i don't care if i have to pay full price
for an entire new wardrobe!!
It will be worth
EVERY.
SINGLE.
PENNY!

ELEVEN DAYS!
  i'm gonna have a FLAT belly,
PERKY boobs,
no more back fat,
no more boobs going around to my back,
no more muffin top!

all arrangements have been made for the kids.
money has been paid (OUCH!)
Hotel booked
just have to pick up my meds and wait for the day!!
sorry, but after Catherine mentioning being 'found out' from GOOGLE,
 i took my pics down.
I will post my PS pics on my LAPBANDTALK account if you would like to see them. 
I will post here when i put them up.
Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

Friday, February 5, 2010

WOO HOO!!

Unless hubby's leave is denied for that week,
 my surgery will be on April 7th!
I was hoping they had an opening in March,
but that's ok. 
I have more time to get back to my low weight.
61 days and counting!!


Oh, and in other good news, the scale moved, just a little...131 this morning.  I'll take it!

my water intake is still slacking and it definitely is affected by it being cold.
so this morning, i set a timer on my phone to go off every 2 hours from 10 a.m. until 4 p.m. to remind me to DRINK a bottle of WATER! 
if i already had some water before 10 (since i usually do my coffee first thing) then that's extra.  after 4 is extra too...but between 10 and 4, if i drink 1 bottle every 2 hours, that is just a little more than 64/day.... what i should be doing!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Out of the closet...

ctually, standing right in front of it.
thought i would post these (again, but with a face) to show how on such a short person, the difference of losing what some don't consider A LOT.....to what others have to lose.
I was looking for a picture to change my desktop to (i change it often to different pics of my kids...they enjoy seeing what i picked) and came across these...YIKES!
this was the night before surgery.  OH how UNhappy i look.  it's funny how some days i ask, WHO is that person, and other days THAT is who i still see in the mirror!!
anyhow....me, out of the closet...and standing in front of it!  LOL



WOW....i'm so happy to not be that person anymore.

Edited to take pics down....GOOGLE is scaring me into being 'found out!'

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

C25K

I'm still going strong on the C25K. 
I actually did what you aren't suppose to do and skipped ahead. 
I originally was doing the same week, 6 days a week for a week.  That got old.  Then i decided to to each week until it was easy or i could increase my time. 
This week i did one day of week 4, then last night, I skipped to week 5 day 3. 
I ran TWENTY minutes straight!  I have VERY SHORT LEGS...i'm only 4'10.5"
I ran at 4.7 most of it, then, upped it to 5 when i had 5 minutes left, then up to 6 for the last minute. 
I did not die, i did not get totally out of breath and i'm not even sore today! 
I really didn't see being about to run a 5K in 30 minutes by the end of this, but if i have 3 weeks to work on speed, i'm sure it's doable now!
HA...probably right in time for my surgery and then i will not be able to run for who knows how long and then i'll have to start ALL over!  LOL

The scale really isn't budging, but it's not bothering me anymore.  I feel leaner than i did before at this weight and i'm sure the scale will move sooner or later.
we are hoping the taxes get deposited Friday morning and that i will get to call and book my date for surgery!

We are having a Super Bowl Party here on Sunday....GEAUX SAINTS!!!! and will have ALL. KINDS. OF. CRAP.....here for the eating.  I think i'm going to make a pot of turkey chili so i can fill up on THAT and it will keep the junk to a minimum. 


Wanna B thin again...is almost there!

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

it's getting closer!!! and *GASP* pics...

(face included!)  i may have a panic attack over this, and i'll probably take them down later....remember, i'm suppose to be ANONYMOUS!

We did our taxes yesterday!!! WOO HOO!! it's a GO!  I GET TO HAVE IT DONE!!
We will probably have our state in a week and federal in 2.  When the State gets here i get to call and book my date!  I have to put down $1000 to hold a date. 
IF there are dates open in MARCH, I MAY still be able to do it then instead of waiting until APRIL!  The plans that would have interfered with me having it in March have changed!  I can't wait to find out what dates are still available!!

in other news:
I have worked out and done the C25K 6 days a week!! 
water isn't as good as it should be everyday, but i'm working on that.  Anyone else find when it's cold, it's harder to get enough water?  in the summer, i have NO trouble, i probably get my days worth in by 2 PM!

The scales not moving like i would like, but, i'm NOT letting it get to me.  Obviouly, with running everyday, and my workout, i'm buring more than half of my calories that i'm eating.  I'm trying to really not focus on the NUMBER on the scale. 

Hubby & I when we made a trip out of my PS consult in November.

This was Dec.1st.  size 6 jeans (see my muffin top showing...I cannot wait until THAT is GONE!!!) Not sure of the top size...  that's the back on my 3yo and my doggie.

It was not until i saw this pic of me (with my littlest bit in the emergency room) that i thought my face looked thin!  why can we not see it when we 'see' ourselves everyday? 
After hubby took this pic, i told him, "ok, don't ever let me say i need to lose more because my face still doesn't look thin!"  i TRULY did NOT see this when looking in the mirror!
(this was the week of Christmas)

ok, I'm panicing now..... but here i go...pressing PUBLISH!

Edited: took pics down due to people being 'found out' from GOOGLE!

Wanna B thin again...is almost there!